I feel far away
From any kind of goal
Or a new direction
I even feel Dar away from him sometimes
Almost like him ever wanting me
Is surreal
If he's not right next to me
The definition of what I mean
If I'm important
How he feels
Really feels
Really thinks
If I can't see
Or touch him
Feel him see me
It all feels foggy
Shouldnt I just be grateful...
I guess I'm just selfish
Scarlett
Xoxo
Last night I went there again
It had been a while
But I couldnt focus I couldnt stay where I wanted to be
With blue
Course is it fair to always want to be with blue like I do?
I hate myself
When I'm petty with things
Eat at me that really shouldn't
Things shallow
Things I shouldve matured out of
Like her
How she gets in my head
How I feel compared
Like his own
And how they already hate me
People just don't approve of me
Don't like me
An embarrassment
I'm something you hide
I'm like a drug
That makes everyone judge u for using
I'm so sick of that lost feeling
Of being broke
Of being broken
Of wishing I was someone else
Why can't I just be stronger
Scarlet Xoxo
I want to cry
I want to bleed
I want to find my way
Crawl my way out of this hole if it kills me
My own madness
I miss him
I shouldn't
I should never miss him
I just hurt
Mt head us throbbing
Throbbing
I'm so far gone
No one can save me
No one should have to
If only I was still with the fish under the sea
Isn't that just terrible
I just keep pushing the blade deeper
Xoxo,
Scarlet
