Like a blur

Last night I went there again
It had been a while
But I couldnt focus I couldnt stay where I wanted to be

With blue
Course is it fair to always want to be with blue like I do?

I hate myself
When I'm petty with things
Eat at me that really shouldn't
Things shallow
Things I shouldve matured out of

Like her
How she gets in my head
How I feel compared
Like his own
And how they already hate me
People just don't approve of me
Don't like me
An embarrassment

I'm something you hide
I'm like a drug
That makes everyone judge u for using

I'm so sick of that lost feeling
Of being broke
Of being broken
Of wishing I was someone else

Why can't I just be stronger

Scarlet Xoxo