my little sister lays next to me
shes 12
I think about when I was 12
how horrific it was
I pity what shell grow thru
tomorrow is thanksgiveing
a time to celebrate family and be grateful
but what am I grateful for ?
nothing
everything I wait for is gone
my grannies car
my peepaws truck wont pull up
I cant even make her pie right
shes gone...
why cant I be with them
I think Id be much more grateful where they are than where I am
blue left
hes gone hes not here to save me
im getting worse
I cant evem take the babies screams my own
my kin
my brothers and sisters who cant help it
I cant handle it
my aniexty feels like Im suffocating
I miss him
why doES he have to be gone on me right now
I feel so lost like im just in a blur like no one gets me
gid to I love my momma but een she seems just clueless to me
I don't want tomorrow to exist without my granny yet it does.
the one rock I have isn't here so...
tomorrow..
will just have to hurt...
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