Today was bad again

Every time I think I'm ok I'm wrong its Like it goes for a while and when.it hits again its worse than the time before
Maybe I'm overly upset the asshole state trooper gave me a ticket for wearing my seatbelt "incorrectly"
Maybe its blue

It does feel like I'm changing abt blue things have lost all od its "sparkle" he was always my anchor
All those times I surreally leave my body
Wander away to whereevrr that place is it never happened with blue he kept me here
But now one even caught myself leaving even when were having sex
Thwoat intimate contact you can have the closest you can get to someone basic identity and I'm drifting

Apparently I'm getting worse..

Today when I left blues I came home and wanted to sleep ya know its was still kinda early its a day off go back to bed and sleep till noon

I woke up at 530 this afternoon
Thata just not normal or healthy is already slept 7 or 8 hrs ans then without any meds to induce it slept 7 more... It's just getting worse its like I can't function

Now blue is just changing all the plans and bringing Everyone he even yelled at me.

Hearing monster and ladybug helped bit o just feel gone

All I wanted was to go to the fair

And it ALWAYS rains me out

Xoxo,
Scarlet