Rip Your Nose and Drink Your Coffee

This little girl in this classroom just make my mind run
thinking about all the pain Ive been in the last 4 days and thinking
that I could be pregnant and that I could be miscarrying or be pregnant in
my fallopian tube and that there is nothing I could do yet again
seeing her watch the world and knowing that innocence that nothing can compare to
thinking about Nolan or Lindsey

In PSY shes talking about raw sensory information
association
perceiving the world and the process of interrupting it
based off of the information already within your brain

god ill be glad to have my Lenovo in my hands and be done with this computer
I need a laptop that's just fact
but knowing how much money I spent and knowing that this thing will just
lock up turning off or will struggle to connect to the internet like it should
its not worth the 900$ bucks I spent

My nose feels like its throbbing I still cant figure out how I managed
to rip out my nose ring with my sunglasses
the ways I use my bad luck these days just completely astounds me
It was so close to healed
I was excited that next week Blue would take me to buy new jewelry
hes said it twice now I think he really just wants something quality that
Ill love
and that hell love
I think he really likes the piercing
I think he sees it like a beauty mark just like the freckles in my eyes
its just a little quirk he can get lost about
something he can see as "cute" or "Different"

As if my bright teal wig isn't "Different" enough
Love,
Scarlet